Keeping up with the Hankins'

I have not blogged in over a month, and I am trying like heck to figure out why.  Either it's a.)  blogging is my therapy and since my life is so perfect right now, I need no therapy or b.)  my life is so incredibly busy right now that I don't know if I am coming or going.

It's b.


I don't know where to start, but how about here....

I think that I was a "stay at home mom" during the wrong flippin' years!  When your children are babies...they aren't really too busy.  I mean, yes, you chase them around the house.  But they don't have basketball practice.  And volleyball practice.  And Art Club.  And field trips.  And Cub Scouts.  And crap to sell for school.  And homework.  And FRIENDS.  I could go on.  And on.

Right now.  Tonight.  On December 9th.  I am wondering how in the heck my working mom friends do it.  I mean, without losing their minds!  I am overwhelmed beyond words.  And I only have 2 kids!  Not to mention the fact that my husband is amazing and I never feel alone in this whole process.  Its truly a team effort, so again, I am wondering why this is so hard for me.  Why can't I get it together?!?!

Here is my reality:   I am tired.  I don't have my Christmas shopping finished.  My daughter is struggling in Math and I am trying to give her some extra attention and help with homework.  We ate ham sandwiches for dinner because I didn't have it in me to cook tonight.  My house is clean but only because my dear husband hired a cleaning lady to come 2x a month to help us keep up.  That is downright embarrassing to me!  Why can't I clean my own house?  Why don't I have time?

Want to know what I miss????

I miss that little window of time when your kids are old enough to play with, talk to, have fun with.  Easy to take to the grocery.  Easy to hang out with while you are cleaning, visiting your grandparents, getting stuff done.  Maybe even that little window of time when they are in Kindergarten or something.  But not yet involved in 50 million things.  Before Math started getting harder.  When you didn't have to study for spelling tests.  And AR books were read 3 or 4 times for the next day's quizzing. 

After they have learned to read.  But before chapter books.

You know....the time of Leapsters and Kidzbop.  Disney movies.  Dora.  Car seats.  Baths.

*sigh*

Why do I have this sneaking suspicion that one day I will be listing out all of the reasons I miss the ages that my kids are RIGHT NOW?  I guess I just need to figure out how to handle the "newness" of where we are these days.  Busy schedules.  Working mom now.  Things just change, huh? 

Maybe I need to blog more.  Maybe I have neglected the very therapy that has kept me sane....

Until next time (which really should be tomorrow, seeing as I am stressed to the max!)...get some rest, for crying out loud.  6:00 am will be here before you know it!