Well, I lied a little when I started my blog. I said that I would be blogging about Faith, Family or my fight with Fat and even promised to have one of the three subjects in the title. I guess you just let this whole blogging thing evolve and do what works.
I am tempted to change the name of my blog, since I have often veered from said topics, but really...everything I talk about probably fits into one of those somehow. The only big thing that has changed has been my desire to discuss different views when it comes to faith. I guess that happened once or twice. But I don't think people like to talk about their faith. I mean, they do if you aren't challenging them on why they believe what they believe. But if you even THINK about questioning anything you have been taught at church, most Christians run the other direction. I am a little annoyed by that. I mean, I am truly not TRYING to make someone change their mind. I am trying to understand. I question because I want to learn. I challenge because I want to think for myself and not be led BLINDLY like so many are. I think people are just offended when they think you are challenging them. It was NEVER meant to offend. I did appreciate the one person who chose to participate in one conversation...I was pleasantly surprised at how open I was to his opinion.
But I digress. I thought a blog would be a great forum for me to gain some insight. Didn't turn out to be. It actually ended up being some strange form of therapy for me, which I have stated in the past, has proven to be loads cheaper than retail therapy. So I'll take it.
About FAMILY, I did enjoy sharing a few stories this year about my crazy kids and silly husband. I never cease to be amazed at how you can get so frustrated with folks you love so deeply. I didn't even think I was capable of loving like this. Yet, often I am pushed to the point of total insanity by the very same individuals. Screwy.
My fight with fat. Oh...well...crap. I didn't just lose. I was knocked out in the first round. I don't know what the heck happened. I really thought that if I blogged about it, I would have some sort of accountability. In turn, I would surely celebrate success. Not so much. In fact, I gained weight this year. Had I only actually started losing when my blog began, I would be at goal weight by now.
Coulda-Woulda-Shoulda.
I know better than to go down that road. I can guilt myself into a deep depression faster than you can say FAT GIRL. I can't go there. Only forward.
So. Here we are. Entering 2010. Still on my journey with God. (Grateful every day for that relationship.) Still learning how to be a parent. (I suppose I will have that figured out by the time they graduate.) And still fat. (Unfortunately.)
What HAS changed?
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